C.S. Lewis
by Trevor Brown
Enter Pan: cultivator of green’ry
Conservationist; half man and half goat.
As the Greeks bore wreaths on their finery,
Pan likely wove those knots from yonder moat.
O’, dear reader, unto me your ears lend:
Should he, known as Pan, wake up tomorrow,
And see his forests destroyed and beyond mend;
Orchards now barren where grapes used to grow.
His despair would be as a mighty oak
Timbering, crashing, and shaking the earth
Once unbreakable – now has been made broke.
“Surely, men would recognize the world’s worth.”
Still, even in ashes, wild mint will bloom.
Pines and vines and even wheat for the grind.
Nature seems frail, but will never know doom.
Pan picks up his flute – a song comes to mind:
“Nary a day comes devoid of suff’ring,
But one should always remember the grass:
When it wilts, it’s not killed, only leaning…
It will rise once again: this too shall pass.”
Therefore, with that in mind, hear me once more:
Ignore not the land and her desp’rate plight,
There is beauty in fields, mountains, and moors.
Plant a seed so again, trees will know height.
by Cheryl Johnson
Summers were spent at grandma’s house a long, long time ago,
Wild horses didn’t drag me there; My parents made me go.
They put me on a greyhound with a giant duffle bag.
Packed up just like a soldier on her way to old Fort Bragg.
When I arrived at grandma’s house I mainly mostly did,
Whatever zeal could conjure up, because I was just a kid.
It took no time to figure out I wasn’t back at home.
The time machine that brought me here forgot to bring a phone.
Cousin Nell came over and we started to discuss,
We watched a little TV till it started watching us.
We woke up the next morning and with much anticipation.
For grandma’s breakfast always was the hit of my vacation.
We went to church that morning and my cousin fell asleep,
The preacher started preaching and I lost my count of sheep.
After church was over and we were back at home
Nell said “man, I’m rested” and I said, “you’re not alone.”
Grandma made us dinner and invited a few folks,
They sat around the fireplace exchanging corny jokes.
Nell and I, too cool for that, and sneaky as a theft
Tipped away and no one knew we’d grabbed our food and left.
As Nell and I sat outside we began to reminisce
We jibbed and jabbered back and forth telling that and telling this.
That time we went to the park and rode the merry-go-round.
We spin and span and spun until our lunch was on the ground.
That time we sat on grandma’s porch and as would have it fate,
Made sure I didn’t see that wasp that landed on my plate.
I was eating hurriedly and really did not spy,
The crunch that came from chewing I just couldn’t verify.
I spit it out and spit it out and twice again I spit,
And all I saw was chewed up wasp; my god, it made me sick.
Nell thought that it was funny and in time I would admit
I said a few choice words to Nell to which I must omit.
After reminiscing time and all the guests had gone
We went back into grandma’s house and then began to yawn.
With my head upon my pillow, I thought, “Oh God, My Tongue!!!
They may have had to cut it out if I had gotten stung.
Good night.
by Madison Crawford
We sat on the top of the roof. It was peaceful. We were staring off into the distance, watching the flashing and explosions of light. I looked over at him, and he looked over at me. I grabbed his hand and smiled; he smiled back.
“It’s beautiful,” I said.
I looked back into the distance.
“It is,” he replied.
“It’s peaceful. Is it supposed to be?”
I looked over at him, and his smile faltered slightly. He then looked into the distance with me.
“I guess so. We don’t have anything else to worry about…”
The explosions of light were getting closer and louder. I leaned my head onto his shoulder, and he leaned his onto mine. The light was overcoming the darkness in the sky. All around us, the world was burning to the ground. The explosions of light were explosions in general. I let a tear slip out, and that is when the explosions got too close. The world around us shook and so did the house we were on. The roof started caving in, and I lost my grip on his hand. I screamed his name, and he screamed mine. I tried to reach for him, but I fell through the roof. It felt as if I were falling forever. Until there was nothing left to grasp for. My life started flashing before my eyes.
It was my first day of school. I met my best friend, Caroline. I was sitting all alone, and she made her way over to me. She brought crayons. I pulled out sheets of paper, and we started coloring together. She was so much better than me. I tried drawing a dog, but it looked like a garbage can. Hers actually looked realistic, besides it being blue. We looked at each other with a smile, and then we laughed.
. . .
It was my first day of high school. I was super scared, but I was texting Caroline the whole time. She never responded though. My world felt like it was falling apart. The message was sent but was never read.
I was wearing all black. It was a big and sad day. I looked forward with tears in my eyes. The casket looked too big for a teenager. The car wreck was during middle school. Who was in the casket? The first person I ever started caring about, other than family. I was sitting beside the girl’s mother, and she was sniffling and crying with a tissue in her hand. I looked over at her, and then it was time to go to the casket. I walked up to it and saw Caroline sleeping inside. If I wouldn’t have been so used to having people die around me, I wouldn’t have known she wasn’t sleeping. She looked peaceful.
Even when I realized there was no point in texting her anymore, I kept doing it anyway. I had no one to talk to anymore. I would keep texting her until the number was out of service. I looked into the mirror and watched the tears fall down my face. She’s gone, I reminded myself. I wiped the tear off my cheek and closed my eyes to calm down.
It was graduation day. I was sitting in the seats with all of the other students in my class. We were wearing black graduation gowns with black graduation caps. I was valedictorian of my class. My name got called up to the stand and I walked up to grab my diploma. I shook the hands of the teachers and principals whom I’d never see again and walked back to my seat. A few minutes later, I had to walk back up onto the stage to the stand. I looked off into the crowd looking for people who weren’t there. I knew they wouldn’t be there. They never were. They were probably on their Miller time binger. They’d show up home like every day. I swallowed and looked down at my paper on the podium. I then read off my valedictorian speech.
It was my first day of work. I was sitting all alone at my desk at the publishing company where I got a job. A man that was my age walked into my room with boxes.
“Oh- I guess I have the wrong room. I’m sorry.”
I stood up and pushed my chair back.
“Oh, no. It’s okay. I’m new here, too.”
He nodded while holding his boxes. I grabbed one of the two boxes and held it in my hands.
“I’ll show you to your office,” I said with a smile.
I showed him to his office, and we laughed the whole way there, talking about anything and everything.
It was my first real date. I was wearing a medium-length red dress and light makeup on. I was waiting at the table for two in the fanciest and most expensive restaurant known demand. I was waiting for him to show up. The waitress walked up to my table.
“We’re gonna need to ask you to give up your seat.”
I was starting to give up on love when he walked in wearing a tuxedo with a bouquet of flowers―Roses to be exact.
“Sorry that I’m late,” he apologized.
I smiled and then we just sat there. Eating and talking about random things.
I snapped back to the present and reached for his hands. He reached for mine, and then all I saw was black. I was dead.
. . .
She fell through the floor, and I reached as far as I could. I screamed her name and felt the tears burning in my eyes. She screamed for me, and I could do nothing but watch as she fell three stories. It was as if the explosions were taunting me, laughing at me, proving that I was worthless. I couldn’t hold back the tears as they poured from my eyes. I ran down the stairs and made my way to the first floor of the building that she fell through. I made my way over to her, jumping over pieces of cement and pieces of the building. I fell to my knees and pulled her into my arms. Her eyes were glazed over and staring up at the sky.
“I’m so sorry,” I cried.
I was dancing with her. It was the ball for our publishing company. She was wearing a tan dress with black mesh. It was beautiful. It was super long. I was wearing a tuxedo as I watched her walk in. I stared in awe. I snapped out of my daze and made my way over to her, arm held out.
“May I have this dance?” I asked her.
She smiled and nodded.
“Of course,” she replied.
She took my arm and we made our way to the middle of the dance floor. A slow song was playing. It was called “The Night We Met” by Lord Huron. I took her waist, and we made eye contact as we danced to the music. It was the best day of my life.
It was our first date. I spent money on flowers—Roses. I was pulling up to the restaurant a little late and made my way to the table I had reserved. She was sitting there in the most beautiful red dress. The waitress was talking to her as she drank her water.
“Sorry that I’m late,” I apologized.
She smiled and the waitress walked away. I sat across from her and handed her the roses. She kindly took them.
We were on the roof, peacefully watching the explosions of light. We were not scared because we knew we’d be together. The closer the explosions got, the tighter our hands were clasped together. We knew at that moment that we’d rather die together than apart. I looked over at her one last time. Her frizzy golden brown hair flowing in the wind, her eyes flinching each boom, her sneaking glances at me to check on me before turning back to the light, her button nose, her plump pink lips, I wanted to remember it all. We held eye contact with each other before it all went horribly wrong. It wasn’t supposed to end the way it did. We were supposed to die together, but fate wasn’t on my side. When I saw her body hit the ground, ungracefully, I knew I couldn’t live without her. There was no point. I had nothing, it was all destroyed. I only had her and then I didn’t even have that.
I stared into her lifeless eyes that used to be so full of life. She had left me, even after our many promises. She didn’t wait. I pulled my pocket knife out of my pocket, the reflection showing my disheveled state, and then it was done. I was finally with the woman I loved. Through life and death, we had made it. We were finally at peace, together.
by Cheryl Johnson
Sometimes I’m up; sometimes I’m down
Teeter totter goes my brain –
Some say I’m Manic; some say depressant -
But I just feel the pain.
Sometimes I’m happy; and sometimes sad
Mindset makes the prediction –
My attitude is on a banana peel –
Who knows what the depiction?
Acting in my best behavior
Deep inside this mess-
I tuck it in and square my shoulders-
People to impress-
A tennis match of feelings
I’m locked, and gagged, and bound –
I hide inside this damned condition –
Never to be found.
by Julianna Hayes
Her hands like icicles, smooth and seemingly pleasant but cold and sharp once held.
Her eyes like a pane glass window with a thick layer of frost in every crease and corner.
Her smile cold and lifeless like the sky on a stormy winter day
Her skin shining just as the tears grasping my face.
Her heart hibernating alongside the creatures that roam the earth.
Her love, as beautiful and as fragile as a snowflake once embraced.
My spirit was a fire, and she was my snowstorm.
by Casie Drummond
The air has a mysterious aura.
His feathers are shinning with a hint of purple, eyes black as pitch.
He is cunning, intelligent and free. You will not fool him.
He flies over me, making sure I am still there. He remembers my face.
He is not meant to be caged, his spirit would wither.
He has to be adorned from afar. His beauty is unmatched.
He calls out, only to pass by for a moment.
His soul matches my own
by Ashley Hunter
In the depths of my mind so dark and deep,
A demon lurks, it never sleeps.
It whispers to me, a constant refrain,
Driving me mad, causing me pain.
Its voice is harsh, its words unkind,
It preys upon my weakened mind.
It tells me lies, it feeds my fears,
It revels in my endless tears.
I try to fight, to shut it out,
But it’s always there, it screams and
shouts.
It taunts me with my every flaw,
It laughs as I struggle and crawl.
I long to be free, to break its hold,
To silence its voice, so cold and bold.
But it clings to me, it won’t let go,
This demon that’s taken control.
I pray for strength, for guiding light,
To banish this demon, to end the fight.
But until then, I’ll battle on,
Against the demon in my head, so strong.
by Jordan (CoralAnne) Drummond
Luna Rain had yet to earn her wings and the queen fairy had called on her today to allow her to shine. “Luna, this is your big chance.” Aurora says with a kind smile. She slowly nodded, unsure about what the task would be, but she was up for it. Aurora took her into a room where a mirror sat up against a wall. Luna darling, I must show you something, the queen fairy spoke, guiding the blue-eyed fairy over to the object. She smiled a little as the picture came into view. A mid-aged woman with amber hair, and sapphire eyes stood in what looked like a vacant room. No furniture, no decorations, only the woman stood there. As soon as Luna Rain saw the woman, she had a glow around her body. “Do you see something missing here?” the queen asked. Luna nodded. “It’s empty.” She replied, in a saddened tone. And…and…she glances around the room, noticing that the woman was alone. “Where is her family?” Luna had asked. There were obviously important details missing from the current picture. A husband? A parent? Maybe a pet? Luna had listed off. But the queen just shakes her head. “Does she look happy?” Aurora asked, sighing a bit. Luna only shakes her head and her brows furrowed. No, she doesn’t, she said sadly. Noticing Luna picking up on the mood of the woman. Her light turning blue and shimmering. She lost her husband and children in an accident. “She lost her husband and children in a car accident, tears filled Luna’s eyes as she spoke. “That’s right Luna very well of you to pick up on that.” The queen smiled and realized just how intuitive the fairy before her was. “What shall we do then? Hmm?” Luna thought for a moment, pondering the queen’s words. “Heal her.” She uttered softly, her heart it is broken and her emotions- she is grieving, Aurora.” As Luna indicated the matter the queen could only feel a fondness wash over her.
She praised Luna for her insightful ways. It took most fairies at least decades if not hundreds of years to master figuring out human behaviors. Especially how one could present sudden emotion after an accident. “Luna, you have quite the gift my dear.” She smiled almost brought to tears. I truly am impressed with you.” In time, Luna knew she could earn her wings. She had powers no fairy dreamt of and honestly, she was happy with herself and her abilities. “Can you help her then? The queen inquired after a few moments. Luna was undoubtedly sure that she could, and a smile presented itself across her face. “Yes, she agreed but put a finger to her chin, what are the rules again?”
It wasn’t that she didn’t trust herself with the acknowledgement of her own inquiries, but she had to do it right, this wasn’t just for her benefit but for the sake of others as well.
It was around springtime when the queen called on Luna again. She had been going to and fro to see the woman, as of now, lived in New York City. Luna talked on and on about how the woman adored the pizza and the shopping malls, however she never spoke of her family as it was too painful. “What did you do?” The queen brought the question to the surface, it was probably going to be spoken of sooner rather than later. The realization hit her like a tidal wave on the beach, Luna was hurt by how the outcome was prevailing.
“Yesterday, Luna started off slowly. I touched her cheek, trying to heal her sorrows.” The memory of it bringing a glow around her. I think she knew I was helping her, because she stopped crying.” Aurora smiles from ear to ear wanting the beloved fairy to continue. “I began replacing her saddened memories with cherished ones. Luna smiles a little, feeling a bit timid, her blue eyes glancing towards the queen. “Sounds wonderful, I’m beyond proud of you, my Luna.”
Sitting on the grass, Luna could only beam with pride. “You did a really good thing for her, she will be a happier individual because of you.”
Truthfully, what really mattered was her doing the best she could. A bright light was shining all around Luna now, the blue-eyed fairy glanced around in awe, it was happening she was sure of it.
“Congratulations, you have finally earned your wings, you may go visit the humans whenever you like and mend the broken souls. And that was it, Luna could now fly as she pleased.
by Ashley Hunter
I thought I found my soulmate true,
A love that felt so pure and new,
A person who I thought I knew,
But soon I saw a different view.
Your words were like a twisted game,
A way to make me feel the shame,
A toxic cycle I couldn’t claim.
You claimed to love me oh so much,
But soon I saw it was just a crutch,
A way to keep me in your clutch,
And make me feel like I was such.
You made me doubt my own self-worth,
A weight upon my soul and earth,
A pain that felt like endless girth,
A pain that left me with such mirth.
But now I see the truth so clear,
And though it hurts, I won’t shed a tear,
For I am stronger than my fear,
And I refuse to live in jeer.
I’ve cut the chains that held me down,
And left the past where it is bound,
For though you thought you had found,
A way to keep me underground.
I am a phoenix, rising high,
A spirit that will never die,
And though you tried to make me lie,
I am free to soar the sky.
Old John McAllister was a man that lived stringent by the Bible. There was black and white. No grey area under any circumstance. He had tried to live his life in this manner and had implemented it on his family. He was the head of the house and his wife was submissive. She bore him children, cooked, cleaned, and cared for the children until they were old enough to work in the fields or at his shop. He had five children. Boy, boy, girl, boy, boy. They didn’t light up his life. They didn’t help him find himself or his purpose in life. No, he knew what his purpose in life was. It was to provide for his family and raise them right. He loved his children, but like the good book said, “spare the rod, spoil the child,” and he would not be made a mockery of in the town.
He provided a comfortable life for his family. Nothing too lavish, but also not meager by any means. They were upper middle class which bought them the rights to be pulled into the upper-class stratosphere from time to time, dinner party to dinner party. Life was good and he was as happy as he could be, emotion couldn’t be shown as he was taught by his father, and his father’s father, and even his father’s father’s father. He worked from sunup until sundown, never partook in spirits or lavations (be ye not drunk from wine), and he made sure his family remembered the sabbath and read from the family Bible nightly. He was doing everything right. Until the influenza took hold of his household.
First his eldest at 19, James came home from running their shop in down with a cough. He took to his bed and would never get out of it again. It took him quickly; he thanked God for that. But then the two youngest, the twins Paul and Silas, took ill. 13 years was all they had and it was a long and slow process to watch them go and he prayed for their souls every single day. His wife and daughter were in the trenches with the sick doing the work of women and he and his last standing son, Samson had picked up all the extra moving and shaking at the shop and came home to help the women finish in the fields at night. The flu had crippled the town and just a mere 2 months after laying James, Paul, and Silas to rest his wife Mary had succumbed. She was dead and gone to the fever after 48 hours.
Down to his Samson and the girl, Lilith he began to question what in life he had done to become a modern day, Elijah. But he opted to not question. Years went by. He trained Samson to run the store and he began to step back little by little until he finally had relinquished all the store to Samson and on his very first day of running the store completely alone, he was shot and killed in a robbery.
John was as heartbroken as he could be. Life had stripped him of so much and yet Lilith stood. John loved her sure, but she was the one fight he and his wife had. She was the only kid without a biblical name, and she was the only one that ever boisterously expressed her opinion. She didn’t like to wear the bustle and skirts, she didn’t like to do “women’s work”, she even dared say she didn’t want to marry. Mary always intervened on her behalf citing that it was only because she was the only girl in a house full of men.
John wasn’t sure how he felt about that.
Lilith and John lived in a quiet solitude, a routine had been established and John loved a routine. Every day he would rise and harvest their little plot of land, feed their small barn of animals, and return home while Lilith did (begrudgingly) the women’s work. He had sold off his store and most of his land when Samson met his demise, and he knew the money would be more than enough to live on for the rest of his days as well as throw a nice wedding if ever Lilith would come off her fascination of being a spinster.
Their day began like any other, up with the sun and both father and daughter were meandering about fulfilling their tasks. John left to plow, and Lilith was gathering laundry for their wash bin. John usually spent the day in the fields but today, the heat was more than usual, his steps were slower, heavier, and he could not find the will to plow on. He decided to call it an early day and head back home, put his feet up, and take a much-needed nap even though he knew deep down he would chide himself for the laziness. He approached the house and noticed that Lilith wasn’t out at the washing bin. Perhaps she too had a bout of the laziness. Perhaps the influenza had finally shown back up to finish off what it had started years ago.
He pushed that thought from his mind. He pushed open the door and he was met by his lone child underneath one of the neighboring farmer boys completely naked and on his kitchen table. It was clear that this was not the first time nor was it unwanted. Her shock was able to be read clear as day on her face and the boy tried to push off her to jump up. Something inside him snapped. He grabbed the cast iron pan from the stove, and he beat the boy into unconsciousness, Lilith’s screams doing nothing but enraging him more.
He turned his sights on her now as she pushed the bleeding boy off her and rolled to the floor, sobbing and clamoring to cover herself, begging he stop. John looked at her with disgust, rage, disappointment… it all came bundled in one neat little package. And then his eyes darkened, and he quoted, “Leviticus 19:29 ‘Do not profane your daughter by making her a harlot, so that the land will not fall to harlotry and the become full of lewdness.’ How could you in MY house?!”
And with that, he delivered the crushing blow to her skull.
The boy came too, and John put such a fear in him that boy went home and told his parents that his injuries were sustained from a group of drifters he had the misfortune of running into on his way home that day. He never spoke on it again until years later on his own timely death bed.
John retrieved his knives usually reserved for sawing through animal carcass and set to work on his final child. He separated her into legs, torso, arms, and head. Every night for the next four nights, he would burn one of his piles and on the fourth night, he sat her decapitated head in the bottom of the stove and burned it day and night until it was ash. Then, he stopped, looked around and knew what had to be done next. He went out to the barn and opened each stall allowing the animals to run free. He then grabbed a rope, trudged back towards his house, tied the rope to the banister, fashioned a noose out of the remaining end, slid the fibrous object around his neck, said a small prayer, and flung himself over the side.
His body hung for days before anyone noticed the absence of him and his daughter. But it is said that on the hottest night of the summer, you can feel the heat that caused the rage in Old Man McAllister to rise up like a beast. And if you listen, you can hear the screams of his daughter as she pleads for her life. But make sure that you yourself are of pure mind and motive if you dare trespass the abandoned McAllister land for the legend is he can sense your sin and he will purge you of it.
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